Okay, now I feel better....on to the good stuff.
So I spent some time tonight at Michael's with my daughter Brooke shopping for an art box. I started looking around at all the fun stuff they have to do in there and thought to myself, "Why don't I start a project? That will keep my hands busy when I want to reach for food." I checked out all the different yarns they had in stock and decided to buy a really soft skein that has different shades of blues and grays. Very pretty. I am going to start on a scarf for my co-worker Linda. I am thinking it will be her Christmas present so I will have some time to get it done. She has taught me a lot about the job since I started working with her in January. I'm thinking a homemade gift will be much better than a gift card or something.
So I'm thinking this project will kill two birds with one stone....one Xmas gift down and something to keep my hands out of my mouth for the next few months.
When I was looking at all the things to do at Micheal's I started thinking, " When did I give up on being creative? Maybe I should channel some of the activities I used to do when I was younger. All the stuff I really enjoyed like art classes at the Art Museum, dance lessons, playing an instrument. I mean I spent years playing in band and I think I would have a hard time reading music at this point. I used to love taking pictures and working with photography stuff. Where did all that go?
I was talking to Ron (my husband) last night. He made a comment about how I don't have many friends. At first I was pissed. But after thinking about it, he wasn't too far off the mark. I have been putting everyone else in front of myself my whole life. I have always done for others and I guess that doesn't leave much time for myself. Not much time to nurture friendships, not much time to enjoy the things I like to do, or used to like to do as the case may be. I know it's a good thing to have a servants heart, but I am figuring out I need to balance it with things I am doing for myself. If I am depleted of energy, if I don't recharge myself, if I don't keep my cup full, how can I possibly fill someone else's cup? I have nothing of myself left to give....right?
So we started talking about signing up for a dance class....I don't know if this is actually going to happen, but I'm at least thinking of getting out there and doing something for me. It's the first tiny step in this long journey.....
Until next time, Pam
Good to see you're putting yourself first for a change! Feels good, doesn't it? The scarf is a great idea!!
ReplyDeleteIt's hard when your kids are small, need more of your attention and actually enjoy spending time with you. Once they get to be teenagers and you can't pay them enough to be seen with you, you find you have more time for yourself, and friends, and hobbies. So what I'm trying to say here is... don't be too hard on yourself. You've been busy! Keep doing what you're doing and take advantage of every hour of "me time" that comes along, or those you carve into your busy schedule. I think we only get more of them from here on out, not less. Maybe 40's not so bad, eh?
How's the eating going? Let me know if you need any healthy, low-cal quick-fix ideas. I have dozens of suggestions for a busy schedule, especially breakfast.
Keep on keepin on! Looking forward to hearing more...